Annnnd I Live!

Hey there, all!

Yeah, given I posted a couple of reviews in the past month, you probably figured that out. I’ve been sulking for several months and having massive writing issues. BUT! Last week I finally hit on the cause and abruptly I started writing again. Thank the good lord above for small mercies. It’s like being able to … erm…sorry for the imagery, but able to purge some of the frustration that’s been building up in me.

So, that said, I’d like to introduce you to three of the characters that I hope will keep me occupied for the months (years maybe, if my stories hold out) to come.

Meet Ch’Gral – the Demon of the Sky, the oldest known dragon in the E’Shar’N Empire:

Demon of the Sky

Demon of the Sky

I’ve had this picture of Ch’Gral in my head for longer than I’ve known my husband. That’s how old the stories are that are flitting in my head. I wrote a lot of them out, or at least imagined them (I was using the characters for a story-based online RPG group…and it just helped me to write back then).

Next, meet Lissia:


Almost as old and familiar to me as Ch’Gral, she also plays an important role to the stories.

Finally (for this post anyway), meet Kiya:


Kiya is the dragon bonded to Lord Vayrun, the High Priest of Deyou, the Dragon God, and leader of the Alastrian people.

Now, if all this is confusing you because, I know, dragons aren’t in the real world (or even my alternate Earth worlds with gargoyles and/or vampires)…you’re right. I’ve FINALLY given up the ghost and gone back to writing fantasy. And OMG, it. Feels. GOOOOOOOOD!

I finally, thanks to the help of my husband, my wonderful and ever-patient CP AS, and Mav, a reviewer I love to talk to, I realized Monday what drove a lot of my depression and inability to write was a twofold problem:

  • I’d gotten so wrapped up in what “the authorities” said about needing to plot, the three-act story, and having internal + external motivations (which, let me be honest, I still don’t get the difference between…I’m not that smart), that I couldn’t focus on what I’ve always been good at – just letting the words flow out. I was trapped in “OMG, I don’t know why she’s doing what she’s doing”, rather than just accepting (okay, re-accepting) that I am a pantser, I learn the characters’ motivations as I write my first draft, and just let it go:

Elsa Transform

  • And second, I was a square peg trying to force myself through a round hole and it wasn’t working for me. At all. And by square peg I mean as a “romance” author. There’s nothing wrong with romance writers, and I enjoy having a romance in my stories. But to me, the ultimately enjoyable part of my books are the stories, the world-building, and all of that. Not the romance. The one thing that was almost never knocked in my books was the world-building – lord knows the romance got bad reviews. And as a romance author, that’s what I was having to do. That’s what I did to Locked in Stone and not only did it bomb commercially, but I didn’t find myself in love with the final version that got published. Sad, but true.

So, I’m going back to fantasy, which is what I loved to write back in the day. Oh, I’ve got ideas for non-fantasy books, maybe redoing my Dream-Walker War series, removing the heavy focus on romance, and a futuristic series I’ve had in mind for some time.

I’m about 11.5k into my book, which doesn’t have a working title, other than “Demon Witch” which really isn’t appropriate considering the main character, from whom the name comes, hasn’t even received the name yet. Still, it’s given me something to work on and I’m grateful for that, even if my husband thinks I need to have an uber-villain for a fantasy novel to work. And he may be right, but right now I’m just following the story that’s in my head and that’s what has worked for me in the past. Just get the first draft out and see where things shake out (and beat the crap out of my inner editor who keeps telling me to go back and fix this or that).

So – share what’s been going on with you! I’d love to hera from you.



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